Day 2 + Day 3

Hari 2 dan 3, I must say it didn't go well.

Tapi bukan berarti kalau gw kembali ke ZERO alias nol. Pernah ngerasa jantung keiris-iris dan dada lo serasa ada lubang hitam gede yang bisa nelan elo hidup-hidup? Yep, itulah gw dua hari belakangan ini. Belum lagi gw mendengar fakta-fakta aneh tentang dia dan juga tentang gw sendiri yang gw dengar dari mulut orang lain.

Gila yah capek gw. CAPEK.

Belakangan gw hancur banget. Gw dengar hal-hal yang jelek tentang dia, bukannya gw jadi il-fil tapi malah jadi kepengen lari ke tempat dia. Gw pengen peluk dia erat-erat dan nangis sekeras-kerasnya di pelukan dia, "Nggak, gw tauk lo ngga kek gituh. Gw tauk lo pria luar biasa yang selama ini gw sayangin. I know you're not perfect, but I don't know why that's the reason I love you like this. Please, don't ignore me ever again. Just let me love you and let me be by your side. I'm not monster like you said. Though I never showed it to you, but I always have taking your side."

But, If I ever said those things to him, don't you think that make me a pathetic person? -sigh- And he will likely to step on my pride again, and of course, if that happen I'm afraid I'll bring him the wrath of Frey unconsciously.

Jadi, gw cuma bisa kuatin diri dan berkata sama diri gw sendiri untuk kembali ke rencana semula. Biarin tangan Tuhan yang bekerja kalau emang Dia ngga mau hubungan gw kek gini sama dia. Bukannya gw pasrah dan gak mau usaha, tapi hubungan pertemanan pun juga termasuk keputusan Tuhan, kan'?

Gw capek kalo gw usaha ternyata malah bikin drama baru lagi.

Let God work this time.

Sad Song or Funny Song?

So, I found this while I was searching sad songs to stimulate my mood to write a short story (or novel, lol) as usual. And I can't decide whether this song funny or sad. You may get what I mean when you know that this song is a soundtrack from 'Flight of The Concords'. I don't know much about this comsite, but I've seen one and it's one hell stupid series. And it's weird to see the main cast crying in this video. Check this out as you may find the lyrics is a bit hilarious than any ordinary heart-broken love songs.

 

I'm Not Crying
Flight Of The Conchords
Series One - Episode One - Sally

So, you're leaving, aren't you
I knew it when you said just then and you told me you were leaving
That's when I definitely knew
But if you're trying to break my heart
Your plan is flawed from the start
You can't break my heart, it's liquid
It melted when I met you
And as you turn around to leave
Don't turn back to me
Don't turn around and see if I'm crying
I'm not crying

I'm not crying
It's just been raining
On my face
And if you think you see some tear tracks down my cheeks
Please. Pleasee, don't tell my mates
I'm not crying
No, I'm not crying
And if I am crying
It's not because of you
It's because I'm thinking about a friend of mine you don't know who is dying
That's right, dying
These aren't tears of sadness because you're leaving me
I've just been cutting onions
I'm making a lasagna
For one
Oh, I'm not crying
No
There's just a little bit of dust in my eye
That's from the path that you made when you said your goodbye
I'm not weeping because you won't be here to hold my hand
For your information there's an inflammation in my tear gland
I'm not upset because you left me this way
My eyes are just a little sweaty today
They've been looking around, a lot
Searching for you
They've been looking for you
Even though I told them not to
These aren't tears of sadness
They're tears of joy
I'm just laughing
Ha ha ha-ha ha

I'm sitting at this table called love
Staring down at the irony of life
How come we've reached this fork in the road
And yet it cuts like a knife
I'm not crying
I'm not crying
I'm not cry-y-y-y-y-y-y-y-ing